Those Men - Nathan Yockey
You have to look at Medusa straight on to see her. And she's not deadly. She's beautiful and she's laughing.
—Helene Cixous
I once heard an analogy about skepticism
a dozen baked brownies and one filled with poison,
from a woman with her head tilted and an eyebrow raised
asking me if I’d look twice.
As a kid, I heard stories
of bulbs flickering as lamps
smashed against walls fizzled and died out.
Clumps of hair between clammy fingers as an aunt,
a sister, a daughter, “fell” down the stairs.
Echoes from eons-old words bounced off hollow walls
I told myself I'd never be like them.
I cupped my hands against my ears as they bled.
My feet crunched broken ceramic and I squinted to see through black smoke in houses tyrants tried to burn down on their way out the door.
It’s a man’s world, and all men
are wolves in wolves’ clothing – “Not me,
not me! Not all, not all!” I once heard
an analogy about skepticism from a woman with her head tilted
and an eyebrow raised asking me if I’d look twice
at crossing to the other sidewalk on an evening run, saying
excuse me hands-free from a lower back on a Saturday at the bar,
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at being a passive bystander to those men.
If only one sets the fire but nine do nothing
all ten still burn.
I hang my head at pink pepper sprays dangling on every keychain,
swinging back and forth like a noose for the idealistic “not me, not alls”.
Delegated drink bodyguards clasp hands over solo cups,
as phone calls with no one sound into an empty parking garage.
I watched my dad and learned the tide that could be turned
when one stood against. Said “I love you” in rooms where
trusting was making a miracle.
I watched him bled on by cuts made by a knife he didn’t hold.
I learned mountains could move by holding tissues with white knuckles
and the way the echoes grow faint when someone opens a window and lets in the breeze.